In October, I asked my Therapist for a break.
There’ve been a few moments, especially as Christmas approaches, that I’ve wondered if this was a wise decision.
Can I face the challenges that come with this season, on my own? Can I use the tools and strategies I’ve learned and practiced, to not only survive and get through this season, but live it, enjoy it, and create wonderful memories I’ll treasure forever?
Whatever the outcome – It’s something I needed to do. I needed to trust myself; to give myself permission to walk in my shoes and observe how different I feel and behave, if at all.
In October 2024 I was on a work trip, sitting in my New York City hotel room, struggling mentally and emotionally. I had friends I could call, but deep down I knew I needed more help. So I reached out to a therapist I’d spoken with before. She’s helped me so much this year and I’ve felt the change – ironically, that’s why I felt ready for this break.
I was keen to make it clear to her that it would only be for a few months. In the back of my mind I was afraid that I wouldn’t do so well and I’d need to run back to unpack it all. However, deep down I knew that trusting myself, meant seeing how I’d get on when I had to process my experiences and emotions by myself.
I think I’m doing well so far and preparing for a season that is notoriously challenging, but I’m ready for it and look forward to telling her all about it in the new year.
Takeaway: I can be trusted to look after myself and manage my life. It’s okay to receive help, but I don’t ever want to forget that I am trustworthy too.